Diary of a trying Christian

How do I say goodbye to my unborn child when I never had the chance to say hello?
How do I put a wreath on mama when we had so much planned?
How do we spend forever together, when you are 1,000 miles apart?
How do you promise me a lifetime and end it in days?
Where is my next paycheck ?
Where is my healing?
And by his stripes we are healed, but I’ve been sick for years and it feels like it’s going to be the death of me.
Curve balls… life will life you!
We are all going through something, whether we talk about it or not, Lord knows each one has been handed their own share.

One statement is etched deeply in my heart, “GOD DOES NOT MAKE MISTAKES.”
Sometimes we go through the worst of the worst and we start to doubt if God really let this happen.

Na plans you have for me no, Afa he ? (where are the plans you have for me?)

But God does not make mistakes.

“And this small and temporary trouble we suffer will bring us a tremendous and eternal glory, much greater than the trouble.”
‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭4‬:‭17‬ ‭GNT‬‬

““Peace is what I leave with you; it is my own peace that I give you. I do not give it as the world does. Do not be worried and upset; do not be afraid.”
‭‭John‬ ‭14‬:‭27‬ ‭GNT‬‬

Before the ascension of Christ, he left us peace. Because he knew there would be hard days.

He left us the Holy Spirit, because he knew we would need a Comforter, a still voice to calm our storms, to teach us and direct us.

I believe trials come to show God’s Glory.
Sometimes we forget to let God be God. We focus on all things seen and plan and execute in fear, excitement or anxiety without God.
Then he will show us something small. Believe it or not, God has a sense of humor.

“Commit your way to the LORD, Trust also in Him, And He shall bring it to pass”.
Psalm 37:5

The story of Lazarus is one of my new found favorites. Lazarus died for days, Lazarus aa )nne Jesus b) kosua tafre. (a popular saying in twi about how close two people are.)

“Jesus loved Martha and her sister and Lazarus.”
‭‭John‬ ‭11‬:‭5‬ ‭GNT‬‬

You would think that God will heal him before he died. Maybe blow a mighty wind to chase the sickness away.

And yet Lazarus died.

His family went through pain and grief burying their beloved and still no sign of Jesus. Days went by and no Jesus.

But when Jesus showed up….

“When Jesus arrived, he found that Lazarus had been buried four days before.
“If you had been here, Lord, my brother would not have died! But I know that even now God will give you whatever you ask him for.” “Your brother will rise to life,” Jesus told her. “I know,” she replied, “that he will rise to life on the last day.” Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life. Those who believe in me will live, even though they die; and those who live and believe in me will never die. Do you believe this?” “Yes, Lord!” she answered. “I do believe that you are the Messiah, the Son of God, who was to come into the world.” After Martha said this, she went back and called her sister Mary privately. “The Teacher is here,” she told her, “and is asking for you.” When Mary heard this, she got up and hurried out to meet him. ( Jesus had not yet arrived in the village, but was still in the place where Martha had met him.) The people who were in the house with Mary comforting her followed her when they saw her get up and hurry out. They thought that she was going to the grave to weep there. Mary arrived where Jesus was, and as soon as she saw him, she fell at his feet. “Lord,” she said, “if you had been here, my brother would not have died!” Jesus saw her weeping, and he saw how the people with her were weeping also; his heart was touched, and he was deeply moved. “Where have you buried him?” he asked them. “Come and see, Lord,” they answered. “See how much he loved him!” the people said. But some of them said, “He gave sight to the blind man, didn’t he? Could he not have kept Lazarus from dying?” Deeply moved once more, Jesus went to the tomb, which was a cave with a stone placed at the entrance. “Take the stone away!” Jesus ordered. Martha, the dead man’s sister, answered, “There will be a bad smell, Lord. He has been buried four days!” Jesus said to her, “Didn’t I tell you that you would see God’s glory if you believed?” They took the stone away. Jesus looked up and said, “I thank you, Father, that you listen to me. I know that you always listen to me, but I say this for the sake of the people here, so that they will believe that you sent me.” After he had said this, he called out in a loud voice, “Lazarus, come out!” He came out, his hands and feet wrapped in grave cloths, and with a cloth around his face. “Untie him,” Jesus told them, “and let him go.””
‭‭John‬ ‭11‬:‭17‬-‭34‬, ‭36‬-‭44‬ ‭GNT‬‬

God does not make mistakes. Be encouraged, be comforted, trust and obey. It might tarry, it might look like all hope is lost, it might look daunting and impossible, but God’s will shall prevail to His Glory.

A wise man said to me yesterday, “let’s take it a day at a time and allow God to direct it”
Bridgit